Migel Ruiz -The four agreements

A few pages later he says :

''People fear because they feel safe in their suffering.They've practiced that and can be in that place for years .They know exactly how to do it .To open the heart is to go into the unknown .People want to reach somewhere without going anywhere .Most people live their life for the end result ,but the living is the life itself .The only way for any of us to say thank you to God ,is to really enjoy and live the life we have .And to say to someone ,''Hey ,I love you.'' Who cares if they love you back ?''

Would she ...

As her friend rightly said , she had hit the wall , either she cud jump it or break it , there was no choice , wid all d options fading out,and after having tried everything else, she felt it wud be easier to just stay pinned to d wall than do any of d above , but that wud be a cowardly thing to do ...so what would she do , who knew how jumping it over wud help or wud it jus lead her to another ditch on d other side , whats on d other side anyways , was her dilemma but she wouldnt know it unless she saw it for herself , faced it herself , was she really ready for it ? was she made of that much metal that she wud face wat was on d other side rather than staying at one place and just wonder ...?

She asked herself would it hurt more to go explore what lay on the other side , what if what was there wasnt what she expected it to be ? She asked herself cornered against her wall of destiny ... is it that certain things should remain unknown and are better that way ...would she be able to face herself with the same pride if she left this to the unknown ...or would this become a regret that she carried with her all her life ? Was the fear of knowing the unknown really so big after all and was it really worth the fear ? Yes she was going to face her worst fear , and she was terrified even before it was there .She asked herself was she really so weak ?

She stood there in her dilemma ...on the verge of facing her worst fears ,on the verge of losing everything ..she stood in her safety zone wondering if her leap would change her life forever ..it was a leap she had to take in her mind .. she only had to overcome this fear and jump the wall ...would she ?

But she knew one thing ...no matter how tough it appeared to be ...she owed this to herself ...she owed this to her life ...the question was ..did she love herself and her life enuf to face what she dreaded most or did she love herself and her life to go get what she wanted most?....would she ?

Dreams

I read this on a friends blog page , its one of my favorite ones --

I knew she was looking at me.....
I knew she wanted to say something......
I knew she would be happy even if I cried......
She held me close to her.....
She had tears in her eyes......
She had all the love I could never have......
We knew we would never be together.....
We knew the dreams would remain unfulfilled.....
We did not get the chance to know each other
But we loved each other.......
I am who am.....
The still born child of my Mother.......

jaane kyon ..dekhi jaane tu !

So what was d deal !!! after so mch persuasion i finally saw jaane tu ya jaane whatever tday ...and i think i saved my frnds their head , i wudda slit em all had i spent money on it really ..aah well
1. since when did ppl talk outve paintings ,was dis a sci -fi or mano ya na mano !
2.if genelia is called meow , why is imran not called bhow bhow ?
3.who is pappu anyways !!
4.i survived the 3 hrs but cudnt figure out wat was ''jaane tu ya jaane na '' abt it
5.why did the mother leave two of her sons behind in raj , cos they were related to salman and prolly wanted to do mre shikaar and imran is related to aamir ?
6.who on earth invented these 3 condns,horses ,jail and maar peet ..uff ....gimme a break ....but nicely placed ...
7.d saving grace was our own jigu ...who wasnt able to decide whether he looked better wid or widout d moustache !

pretty lame :P

Rainfully yours ....

5.45 pm and still at work .. well yeah if im blogging , i don really have much wrk , but that aside ..its yet another rainy day in mumbai ,while i came in at 3 ,most of d ppl outside were rushing back home.most of d second shift ppl have not appeared at d centre today , d ones that did are almost gone , same ol phenomenon ..trains not working water logging , my bhai tol me ..i was a nutcase, going for wrk tday ...i really wudnt beg to differ ;-) ...i love the rains and all that associated wid them too ..there r traffic jams every where and too mch water ..its still pouring outside , and i don hve a clue how am i going to make it back home .. but for goodness sake ..its just rains !

If i may ...

It feels good today , not d usual upbeat (over) confidence that im usually in , but cos one cycle is over, or so it seems , makes sense ? I know it wudnt , to me it duz , didn’t know for a decade , didn’t even understand all this while , the why , the how ..the what …all the ‘?’ ..had no clue …speechless , blank , and loadsa dead ends ..so wats d deal ..someone up there ? knock knock ….?? Nope , that’s what I thought …oh well ..what was I hit by , a truck or did lightening just strike … phew …anyways …after a while there was no game plan ….jus give up , hands up ..heads down … get under the scalpel ..and don even bother asking wat the surgery is abt ..

All the chaos and commotion all this while ..and I thought it was abt me ..nah it wasn’t ..i was jus fooling myself by taking it so personal ..what a joke ! so they say …it was all part of a bigger picture ..didn’t I see it ? why wud I ? I wasn’t even told …oh yeah …they don’t tell u things.. u shud know , u jus learn em along d way !! u go to school ,then u give the exams , afr the exams u learn d lessons , u go thru all d grill , u probably even pass , but hey ….it wasn’t abt u all dis while anyways ..whatte fun !!

..well, well , well .. as long as its over …. What relief ;-)

Ridiculous Assumptions of a Talented Guy

Dude! Innit!! Wassup, smack my bitch up....sometimes this makes me LOL/ LMFAO /ROFLLTPIP. Ok now I got your attention, I have been invited my my friend to contribute to her blog. So here is my attempt, could not come at a right time.

Just off the phone with my boos from NZ, she thinks I am making loadsamoney. Well thats what I thought dentistry was, making money- the first assumption.

I thought its so easy to read books and do dentistry, yes technically its simple- anesthesia, drill and fill and then charge for giving them the discomfort.- second assumption.

Nice cozy life style, working in air conditioned surroundings, working sitting down, working 9 to 5- nice easy life- third assumption

Oh you will look good with this fillings, oh it wont hurt until you got to have the treatment done - fourth assumption.

I thought I am made for this shit, I can keep doing this for 20 odd years and retire in a nice place, with a nice pension- fifth assumption.

Well now the eagles have come to roost, let me tell you - its a load of rubbish.

Dentistry is hard work and only the ones who are really keen should get into this position. What the heck, I love it. I am sure you too love to go to your dentist. I can bet you he/she is a bit of a looney ( not rooney), a bit control freak, inadvertantly over weight ( again i am assuming) possibly borderline suicidal .....would you really want to go to a dentist after all. Now that I have succeeded in scaring you, let me tell you all this is rubbish, coz I am again assuming....

ZIDD KARO !

The new dhoni slogan ''zidd karo'' and why not ? When u know what u want and why u want it ...toh zidd karo ... to whatever it is in life , small things or big ....its ur belief , stand by it ...its what u want ..get it....how many of us do it ..and if we dont , then why dont we ? is it coz we dont belive enuf in ourselves or is it jus plain fear ...is it being used to the stereotype ...and not having d ability to get out of the box ? what is it then ? if u want something really bad , and really really bad ....toh zidd karo ....

or is it jus the notion of getting what we want so strong that we actually lose perspective of how exactly to go get it ? and if we do , then do we really want it that bad ??

zidd karo ....itni karo ...kee haar jaaye kismet ke taare !

Amore aria :-)

Aaaj main upar , aasmaan neeche ..
aaaj main aage ..zamana hain peeche ..
tell me ,Oh Khuda ..ab main kya karoon ??
chaloo aage ke peeche chaloooo

aarre aaarrrre aaarree .....arre arrre arrrree ..!!!

And i found way ..

A dark and ominous cloud surrounds and attempts to shut out the sun.
The joy and warmth of a heart of love shines on.
The darkness has not won.

A wavering deep within the soul questions .. Was I wrong? Did I stray?
Why would this wound me so?
I ponder and I pray.

My God of love is always there and He guides me through each day.
When I weaken and begin to question “why”.
He says, “my child, pray”.

For I will give you all you need
to “weather” such a storm.
Have faith in what you know is true.
My steadfast love transforms

I can dream !

There's no fairy godmother
To make my wish come true.
No genie in a bottle to bring me to you.
No prayer on a fallen star
No magic potion in a jar.
But i can dream and when i do.
I dream that i'm there with you