A few pages later he says :
''People fear because they feel safe in their suffering.They've practiced that and can be in that place for years .They know exactly how to do it .To open the heart is to go into the unknown .People want to reach somewhere without going anywhere .Most people live their life for the end result ,but the living is the life itself .The only way for any of us to say thank you to God ,is to really enjoy and live the life we have .And to say to someone ,''Hey ,I love you.'' Who cares if they love you back ?''
Would she ...
As her friend rightly said , she had hit the wall , either she cud jump it or break it , there was no choice , wid all d options fading out,and after having tried everything else, she felt it wud be easier to just stay pinned to d wall than do any of d above , but that wud be a cowardly thing to do ...so what would she do , who knew how jumping it over wud help or wud it jus lead her to another ditch on d other side , whats on d other side anyways , was her dilemma but she wouldnt know it unless she saw it for herself , faced it herself , was she really ready for it ? was she made of that much metal that she wud face wat was on d other side rather than staying at one place and just wonder ...?
She asked herself would it hurt more to go explore what lay on the other side , what if what was there wasnt what she expected it to be ? She asked herself cornered against her wall of destiny ... is it that certain things should remain unknown and are better that way ...would she be able to face herself with the same pride if she left this to the unknown ...or would this become a regret that she carried with her all her life ? Was the fear of knowing the unknown really so big after all and was it really worth the fear ? Yes she was going to face her worst fear , and she was terrified even before it was there .She asked herself was she really so weak ?
She stood there in her dilemma ...on the verge of facing her worst fears ,on the verge of losing everything ..she stood in her safety zone wondering if her leap would change her life forever ..it was a leap she had to take in her mind .. she only had to overcome this fear and jump the wall ...would she ?
But she knew one thing ...no matter how tough it appeared to be ...she owed this to herself ...she owed this to her life ...the question was ..did she love herself and her life enuf to face what she dreaded most or did she love herself and her life to go get what she wanted most?....would she ?
