I feel terrible .. Very very terrible today . I cannot get over the unfairness of this world . It isnt a fair place to live in , but this is what we got . I feel helpless , very helpless not knowing what to do . Mean and bad people get there way , decent people bear the brunt .. Suffer and are unhappy .. I am heartbroken at the unfairness of it all really .

I pray and want it to be ok soon. I hate feeling lonely and sad .. I hope the Gods up there bring some fairness in this world soon . 

Its that time again ..pray n wait . Its coming . What I have been praying to avert for few months is here .. Or almost here .. I have been feeling very stressed and have been telling myself that i need to have some faith here . That it is going to be ok somehow . He is going to look out for me .

Its odd , very odd .. There is no permanent solution and I dont even know how and what to pray for one .. Im scared , very scared .

Imbalance .

I read somewhere that God meets your needs in unexpected ways .. I hope he does .