So we will have a successful FT if aaruv is ready 

Vashi uncle already knew my apprehensions . He said he wasnt sure becos of aaruv and how he will react. Whatever way this ends Maharaj is in control and He will do whatever is right for Aaruv 

However Aaruv who has never slept alone slept by himself when they were all here 

I think he is ready 

I dreamed of J today 

What i want to remind myself is that that relationship is safe in my dreams only . The real world destroys everything. 

Im pretty sure none of it would be like my dreams had it been materialized .Life would find a way to ruin it like ir ruins everything 

Most of our dreams , when and if they come true are ruined in reality . The reality is dark , it’s harsh and it’s hardcore .

Like getting married was such an important thing growing up , finding that one