When people care , it shows 

When it doesn’t .. they don’t 

It’s just that simple 

My souls journey

 Betrayal is my life lesson 

I have to learn to deal with it and not let it affect me , I started early with this life lesson but still haven’t learnt it . The day I do I will make my peace , beginning with friendships I constantly was betrayed and never understood how or why could people who thought of me as their friend find it in their heart to not think how hurt I would be at their acts of betrayal .

My souls journey is to hurt deeply and yet absorb that pain and move forward. Every single time a friend or loved one betrayed me I felt unending , indescribable pain . 

This is hard . It should be hard . It’s a lesson for the soul. And when my soul has learnt that lesson it will be elevated to move into another life where it will no longer face betrayal . This process of purifying the soul has been well described by Papaji . He says all people and experiences around us are meant to purify our soul , remove its deficiencies and allow it to grow . I just don’t know how many more times it’s going to take 

I will get past this 

My heart

And I’ve learnt some truths along the way 

That I am not alone 

That life and love and all that will end 

That the more I expect the harder I will fall 

That it won’t matter who cares or who doesn’t 

That the heart will cry only cos it knows me 

That what I feel won’t matter much 

That what I want won’t matter either 

That pain is ok 

That it’s just me and my heart forever together 

That I can still hope 

That one day it won’t even matter that I hurt 

But until that happens 

I just need to feel the pain 

And hope that I embrace it forever 

That I accept it forever 

I wish 

I could just walk away 

I’ve been hurting way too long 

But I can’t leave my heart alone 

It’s all I have