One more time !

Living alone prepared me for a lotve things , my family moved to US 7 yrs back when i was in my early 20's , i distinctly remember not wanting to feel anything at all , and let the whole thing be just any other thing .. i didn't want to even say it aloud to myself that from here on it was jus me on my own , mom wud visit a few mths every yr , but the family i had lived wid all my life was suddenly gone , and this is probably even the first time that im saying this to myself , my process of accepting to live on my own was simple .. not make a big deal out of it and take one day at a time , and needless to say it worked .. so why am i writing this down here today .. cos even tho it wrked .. it was still not one of the easiest things to do , somehow thru those years i came across the most fantastic ppl , who helped me every step of the way and gradually became more than family , they loved me as their own and made sure i was never lonely , made me realize at times that blood is not always thicker than water ... they were there for me at any time of d day , and i knew i cud count on them , the bond became greater than even those of any of the relatives , it was based on love , friendship and genuine concern of well being for me ,,,

Just when i started living on my own , sometimes i wud ask .. so why do i have to go thru this , i wud find myself glaring at the four walls on festivals and my birthday and somehow that wud suck to the core , but gradually i learned that it ws totally in my control how to make best of this , i had to just open up to ppl arnd me and let them in .... as was i growing up i simply had given up on frnds and family had become my biggest strength ,but this part of my life kind of changed that and i started believing in people more than ever , that they cud bring in happiness and care for u unconditionally , and i can never thank our satsang enuf for that.

A year back i left from Mumbai for US , it ws obviously going to be hard , i had been wid these ppl for nearly 6 yrs and wid all those strong bonds ... i told myself again ... dont make a big deal out of this , take one day at a time ... i miss them all ...but thats what life is !!

One year on , i have to once again move out of my home .. im leaving tomm , in abt 7 weeks i will start my life wid Gaurav .. a part of me is very scared .. ive been thru a lotve transitions already and ideally i shud be prepared ... but one more time i have the same advice for myself .. dont make a big deal outve it .. take one day at a time ... its going to be diff from d rest ... but good different .. nevertheless i am scared .. this seems like the final transition and for sure the tougest one !