Dear Friend..

Dear Friend Yuvie,

It's been four years ,since I lost you , for some reason i miss you today .. i do not know in which world you are but wherever u are i pray that u r safe , loved and cared for cos thats exactly what u deserve.You were the kindest soul I ever came across , your heart and your laughter was that like a child's ..pure and simply beautiful.

Its strange that we do not cherish the people while they are still there and miss them only when they are gone , that we end up only seeing what we dislike in people when they are around us rather than adore them for what we like in them .I remember the last phone call , yes none of us knew it was going to be the last phone call , but mebbe some subconscious part of u did .. i will always remember what u said to me , u surprised me tons , i wish i had known back then that those words came out of u cos God knew we would never talk like that again , that after that conversation the Yuvie i would meet would be somebody else .. i can never thank you enuf for that last conversation cos for all that was to follow ,it became my only strength ... Thank You for giving me a beautiful memory . What we had was a beautiful pure friendship , one that only be cherished every moment .

I dreaded every phone call from you after that , not knowing what news it might bring , for four months , ur life was a vegetable but so was mine along with the many others who cared for you .. nobody knew what fate wud bring and all prayed for a miracle.

6 ft 1 tall , broad and a real big guy .. that was Yuvie , to anyone he might be someone they might get scared of , but to me he was a guy wid the softest heart ever , gentle kind and caring , someone who knew only how to give and never expect , who had pride in being who he was , who respected elders like noone else and could do absolutely anything in the world for his friends .. that was Yuvie ... a buddy and the coolest pal ever , wid him arnd..u cud feel safe and protected cos u knew u had a person arnd u who wud fight for u no matter what, stick by u thru anything and everything , never judge u .. he was one of the very few fantastic ppl i knew .. little did i know .. that the life of this fantastic relationship was shorter than u cud imagine .. he had to go .

The miracle did happen ,and Yuvie was out of coma , and we all heaved a sigh of relief knowing little that this was only beginning of a more dreaded end and literally so ,not only for him but also for our beautiful platonic friendship , he felt he was no longer good enuf and no matter what anyone said he knew that the one person who had to leave from his life was me .. and i had no idea how i was going to survive this coldness , i tried to understand it , made that phone call the best memory from the whole thing and left .. it was going to be a long nite.After a few weeks it was 3.30 in the night and my phone rang , in the wee hrs of the mrning , i wondered who cud be calling me and it was Yuvie , considering how our communication had died out following the accident , i was happy very very happy even if it was 3.30 in the morning , to hear his voice all that time later was magical in it self , he kept talking and i remember i just cried , he kept laughing like bfore and i laughed but wid tears in my eyes ,,.. its the one moment i will never forget , my heart cried and tears rolled down my cheeks all the one hr that we talked , he talked , i cried and he didnt make out , yes for the whole one hr , i do not know how ,that was the first time i came to know .. this is how the heart cries ... for the next lotve days it became a routine , his phone call at arnd 3.30 ,4 in the mrning .. i wud wake up , sit in the window until early mrning hours and just hear him talk , he would talk to me abt everything .. abt every single thing that had hurt him , his dead mother , how he loved her and missed her , abt his childhood , his father who betrayed his family , abt pride and honesty , abt life and love , abt frndships , abt ppl , abt every single thing under the sun and i would just listen to him , abt his addiction , his smoking habits , abt how his life was gradually going towards a slow end at times i wudnt understand what he was saying cos his speech had slurred frm the accident , drugs , etc... it hurt me when he said .. never expect anything from me ,i will teach u everything u need to know before i leave .. and in so many ways he did teach me , at that time i didnt know he was preparing me for life ahead , we had a connection , he knew he had a responsibilty towards me , he knew we had not completed what we had began and we never would ..not in dis lifetime ,he knew this was something very special and i knew he was doing his best wid it .. the conversations were mostly one sided ,wid him telling me everything he knew abt life ,and wid me always knowing at the other end why he was doing dis .. he taught me everything he cud , he simply cudnt teach me how to forget him .. he was my best friend .. and i knew i was going to miss him for a very very long time.

Its been four years now and it does seem like in another lifetime .. but some ppl just change ur life .. i knew him two yrs of his whole 26 yrs life ,cutting off frm him was very hard , but he made it even tougher by telling me how much he treasured me and always wud wherever he was .. i do not know in which world u are right now , but Yuvie .. u were something .. truely something.. i will cherish what u gave me for the rest of my life .. ur laughter still rings loud in my ears and ur smile wid a child like grin makes me smile even today ..

...i do not know why i think of u tday ,mebbe cos ur gone and u have made me realize in so many ways how important relationships and people are while they r still arnd , how precious they are and how we don't give them enuf credit for being in our lives while they r still there , u made me realize that material things will end even bfore we know , what lasts is the care and compassion , love and affection ..and i hope i can live my life only making them my guidelines and nothing else at all ... it all evens out ..everything .. every single thing , in dis fast paced world where ppl think drugs , sex ,porn, alcohol and fun is going to get them thru their lives .. uve taught me the superficiality of it all .. and the real value of relationships , honesty and commitment .. i have no idea how will i repay u back for all of that but the least i can do is live up to it all ...


Little do we know that people who come into our lives might just one day become the fondest memories we have .. That they might end up giving us so mch more than we can ever imagine , that they need to be cherished while they r still there .. while they still live, breathe , smile right next to us .. cos when they go away .. the memories almost hurt .. and make us wonder ..is there anything we should have done differently ?

Thank you for touching my life the way u did .. in the purest manner ever ,Thank you .

Jaane woh kaunsa des ,jahan tum chale gaye ..