The most wonderful thing that u think exists and you want it and hope some day it’s urs and u dream that how great everything will be when u get it . And u Lee dreaming about it and then one day u get it .. but it really isn’t that amazing it’s just as good as poop .
That’s just how ridiculous our wants are .. no good .. nothing .. whatever we think will make us happy ,. It won’t
I am so sorry Kakaji , Vashi uncle .
I let you down.
I married someone who has no discipline , control or moral values . A selfish person who only knows how to point fingers at others and that’s how he justifies his shortcomings - by blaming others
I am so hugely disappointed. I have also let myself down .
Pls Kakaji .. wipe out my प्रारब्ध now , pls
Take me to where you want me to be . Make me who you want me to be .But I’m tired of living this lie .pls forgive me 🙏 pls shower your kindness on me . Pls help me .. I am sorry
When Kakaji has been so kind so many times and I have felt like He has held my hand and guided me ..led me to where I need to go , heard my prayers even before I have said them then I should also understand the situations that seem adverse are also part of His grand plan and I must have patience
Patience is hard to come, also because we fail to remind ourselves of the good blessings , we are selfish we want everything .. but we get a little and the rest we have to patiently wait for , pray for .. toil for .. tapasya
Vashi uncle wrote to me once “ itna kiya hain , aaage bhi Karenge” how very true 🙏
“Saacha prem , bhagwat bhaav , Paaki nishtha”
And after penning that dhun is the only answer I ask the qs : how do I rid myself of the constant worry that I now seem to have every single moment of my life .
Certain truths unveiled themselves in past few months and they weigh upon me so much. I do not want to fail myself but the status Quo is not the answer
For life to go on this anxiety has to go
For the anxiety to go I have to act
For me to act I have to get out of my comfort zone
But getting out of the comfort zone builds more anxiety
Maybe the anxiety is then a step in the right direction
Amen.
Dang!
I read through my blog of several yrs ago and I actually still like the person I was , hopefully in 10 years I will continue to like who I am today
I don’t know but I gotta keep myself alive just who I was , who I am and not change too much no matter what’s thrown at me
It’s all good 👍
It’s amazing
God plan
It’s perfect and clear
We don’t understand it because it’s hard. He knows us , our lives our challenges not just right now but past and future . Stop coming in His way
Yogi Bapa - पात्र भी मैं गढ़ूँगा भ्रमरस भी मैं करूँगा तुम बस ना पड़े रहना
that's it we just have to hang in there
No questions asked whatsoever
He knows and that’s enough !
Truth exists even when nobody knows about it.Just because it’s hidden doesn’t mean it’s gone . The mere existence of it is dreadful enough for many to do things they shouldn’t , that’s how powerful truth is . The measures one has to take to hide the truth sometimes are so immense that they forget they can only hide it not eliminate it cos the truth doesn’t go anywhere .. it’s alway there no matter what one does .
We have to choose if we want to live in fear or in truth and without a doubt the latter is a liberating experience
Kakaji pls defend Ukraine . I pray to you to come to their rescue
I also pray to you that aaruv enters gifted class in middle school 🙏
Betrayal is my life lesson
I have to learn to deal with it and not let it affect me , I started early with this life lesson but still haven’t learnt it . The day I do I will make my peace , beginning with friendships I constantly was betrayed and never understood how or why could people who thought of me as their friend find it in their heart to not think how hurt I would be at their acts of betrayal .
My souls journey is to hurt deeply and yet absorb that pain and move forward. Every single time a friend or loved one betrayed me I felt unending , indescribable pain .
This is hard . It should be hard . It’s a lesson for the soul. And when my soul has learnt that lesson it will be elevated to move into another life where it will no longer face betrayal . This process of purifying the soul has been well described by Papaji . He says all people and experiences around us are meant to purify our soul , remove its deficiencies and allow it to grow . I just don’t know how many more times it’s going to take
I will get past this
And I’ve learnt some truths along the way
That I am not alone
That life and love and all that will end
That the more I expect the harder I will fall
That it won’t matter who cares or who doesn’t
That the heart will cry only cos it knows me
That what I feel won’t matter much
That what I want won’t matter either
That pain is ok
That it’s just me and my heart forever together
That I can still hope
That one day it won’t even matter that I hurt
But until that happens
I just need to feel the pain
And hope that I embrace it forever
That I accept it forever
I wish
I could just walk away
I’ve been hurting way too long
But I can’t leave my heart alone
It’s all I have
My mission :
To please my Guru , be able to lead my life based off the examples that were set by them . Practice what I learn from satsang , whatever I do , my conduct stays influenced by the righteous path laid down by Bhagwan Swaminarayan
Being born a girl , my mission is to accomplish the objectives of every role of relationship that I fall into but most especially that of a mother . To see my child grow everyday into a wonderful human being who is able to see right from wrong , lead an honest life and is humble .
When u look for answers in people who are just as confused as you or even more , you will invariably hit the wall. I’m hitting the wall over and over again
Kakaji ,
If any of this is my fault may the worst fall upon me , but if I have truly tried then show me that you exist.
Today is Vashi Uncles birthday
I wouldn’t know how to live my life if I didn’t have Him in it .
My very first problem came when I failed my pedo practical and hence my pedo exam in final year .
I was so upset cos this had never happened to me . We went to Tardeo , Vashi uncle met me and gave me the warmest hug ever . He made all my worries go away in an instant .
He was and is still so full of love , he connects with our soul by means of His absolute selfless love . He never judges and has always led by example . His glory is impossible to be said in words , He is a powerhouse of endless energy . From the minute his day starts to the time he goes to bed He spends all His time in Seva , Bhajan ,and dhun . .
Vashi uncle is my go-to person and I’m not afraid to tell Him anything because He is both my mother and father . And that is the beauty of Vashi uncle - he will love like a mother and guide like a father .
I remember an instant where He introduced me as his daughter to someone . I was ecstatic , and I remind myself of that all the time . Often however I forget who I belong to , who protects and guides me .. taara naam no bharoso karaye .. Jeev no Shiv banaye
Banda Singh Bahadur was a warrior who fought alongside Dashame Paatshahi Guru Gobind Singh ji
He was a brave warrior who gave up his life fighting the Mughals , that’s all I knew
And then I was told that there was more so I googled and Wikipedia told me heartbreaking stories about Banda Ji
I asked my mom - so why do you not hate Muslims , why do you not despise them .. they killed warriors , they murdered young children , tortured women and murdered the Sahebjaade
Her answer was simple - cos the Gurus did not teach to hate .They taught only to protect ; our beliefs , faith and Sikhi . Their message was to fight for the right and never give up . They were not anti - Muslim , they were pro Sikhi .
So they led by example . Their lesson to us was to protect our faith at all cost . Be courageous and stand for what you believe in no matter what the price .
Guru Gobind Singhji asked for no one to build anything in His remembrance such was His greatness .
My idols continue to be
Gandhi for his truthfulness
Mother Teresa for her compassion
Guru Gobind Singh ji for His courage
Vashi uncle for His selflessness
Bapa for His humility
What happened to me yesterday for 90secs on the road happens to us everyday in life albeit over a longer duration of time .
Let me go over this piece by piece !
While driving peacefully at 70+ in my lane I was tailgated then tried to be stopped on I-295 by the same car almost causing an accident , chased , overtaken and finger flipped , yelled at several times , not even mentioning the lane change race . I was in two minds flipping him , yelling , honking and lastly calling 911 though the phone was in my beach bag but I could call Siri . I did none of those .. I stayed calm .. took my focus off the man who was harassing me .. kept my eyes on the prize - safety , took the next exit and moved away from the scene / craziness .
Ain’t that what life rages / situations are about ? They come like a whirlwind , not giving us much time to think . Our reaction is usually misplaced that leads to problem bigger than the situation itself . Wouldn’t it be better to deal with life rage same way as the road rage ? Take focus off the person causing the rage , keep eyes on the prize - peace of mind .. exit from the scene / craziness
While that is easier said than done , it also has so many layers to it .. layers of ego , revenge , pride , throw in relationships , past struggles and there is your perfect recipe for disaster .
Had I let my ego get the better of me in the road rage incident .. there is a possibility there would’ve been a car wreck or I would’ve been shot . None happened cos i took the exit .
LET GO OF THE PRIDE , TAKE THE EXIT
People have a difficult relationship with truth . Truth is bitter , it’s hard and at times something we don’t agree with , don’t want or accept .
It takes a lot of courage to face , then accept and finally speak the truth .
Truth bruises the ego .. seems to be self defeating and many times something that brings us to our knees .. But speaking and sticking to the truth makes one fearless cos then there is nothing to hide , nothing to run away from , then you are bare open .
Simply put being truthful is a liberating experience .
I’m fearless cos I’ve always stuck to the truth , I’m saddened cos I see altered versions of the truth around me all the time . It is temporarily fulfilling - the altered version , but soul crushing in the big picture .
May the truth Gods give us strength
