Last week I had deep disappointment and regret and i prayed to Kakaji make him swaminarayan 

I was seeing only an only negative and couldn’t understand why I’m here 

I don’t make such direct prayers 

This was 16 Nov 

The next day nehu bhai messaged that santo wanted to come from padhramani 

I still didn’t understand but now I realize 

Maharaj giving sign He is so Pragat 

Kakaji is so great he listens and answers just like that .

I have my sign 

Thank you Maharaj 

Thank you Kakaji 

Thank you vashi bhai 

May I never forget this Divine grace 

 I loved love so much but love didn’t love me back and hence I could never find it no matter how hard I tried and now I feel like I’ve lost myself forever , the best part of my life is my child I wouldn’t know what to do if I didn’t have him . 

I’m left deeply saddened and disappointed , heart broken and soul less . I’ve stopped believing in love , whatever I set out to find doesn’t exist or maybe it does but I couldn’t find it . I lost .