That feeling you get sometimes .. You dont understand what it is at the time .. You cant figure out what is it that is making you feel so sad , blue .. Its just a sixth sense .. That something is wrong or something is going to go wrong .. I tried to dismiss it .. I truely did ;telling myself i was being stupid ..  Blood is thicker than water .. Apparently not

I hate today .. I have dreaded today .. Always .. I hoped it wouldnt come , atleast not in my life .. I probably dont have enough tears that can even flow out to somehow lessen the pain i feel inside .

I am sorry .. I wish i knew how to fix this , sadly i dont .. But i still love you a million times over