And when she looked she knew she had met someone who wud be a part of her heart forever , it was a joyful feeling and she didnt wanna look back , she was in love for the first time and oh so beautiful it was , little did she know that she was looking at someone who would cause her pain for the rest of her life , yes , there were ppl who cud do that and he was going to be one of those ..
she moved on and she again met someone ,thinking this time atleast , the love Gods would have mercy and let her dreams come true .. but dreams are just dreams alas .. he left .. to crumble and crush her life .. and teach her stuff she didnt wanna learn ...
this little dame had the guts to love again .. and she did .. this time she failed yet again , she asked herself ... what is it that keeps me going ? why duznt my heart stop beating before it falls in love cos everytime after a heartbreak it dies a bit anyways ? she didnt ask ''why me'' cos she wud still wanna dream
Her dream was to find love , and give it to her heart , but alas .. she couldnt find it , no matter how she pined .. it was lost somewhere , or so was her fate .. d one thing she wanted she felt , she was denied .. it killed her and made her wonder ... am i me or am i someone else ? if i am me , then how is it that d God up there duznt know me well enuf to knw that all i need is ''love'',
She asked ''how is it that right when im so close to my dreams coming true ,they fall apart ? how long do i learn to live in the joy of the Lord while my soul whines and cries ..how long do i tell myself that this is jus what is right for me ? how long till i find what i came here for ...how much more patience .. and why?''
She needed to know '' is it wrong to dream ? is it wrong to believe ? is it wrong to hurt and still believe .. and believe endlessly ... is ther an end ... or is it always gonna be this way ?''
She was hurt more no. of times than the stars in d sky .. but she still didnt fear falling in love again , she herself didnt know why ... in the dimness of d nite , she wud silently pray absorbing all d pain .. feeling it and letting it seep in ... she wud hear her soul twist and whine ... that she said .. is what is changing ..
How many times more before she would realize that her heart is nothing but a punching bag ....
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