''There is nothing to be taken more seriously besides doing your work and being a really good person''

what moves me most: love
what hurts me most: lack of compassion ,hypocrisy,dishonesty
the only real thing : God
the one goal in life: maintain my integrity and identity

"Nothing worth having comes easy"

Whitney Houston died last week , is it the beginning of celebrity deaths this year ? Isn't it odd that name , fame , wealth doesn't keep one happy . Life comes so cheap. People die cos they don't have enough money in their lives , people die because they have too much money in their lives . Does money really have anything to do with people wanting to live or not then ? Isn't it so very strange ?Will a 500K job make you happy ? Will pics on a mag and recognition on the walls of a hall make you happy ? What kind of achievements does one need to be happy ?
What really is happiness ? what is happiness? I don't think we are ever completely happy , no one is .. is there ? why ? why not ? why does life just move from one sadness to another , one challenge to another , one unanswered question to another , one insecurity to another , one melodrama to another ?

You know why .. because we let our happiness depend on others , because we fail to understand that others will NOT make us happy .That THINGS will NOT make us happy. That money and fame will NOT make us happy . That a fancy car and a fancy house , a wardrobe full of Louis Vuitton and Armani will not make us happy .That a love that never was , a boyfriend that never will be , and a tear that was never wiped will always be an issue but they cannot be the things that keep us away from happiness  , from what we want and what we deserve .That love will remain unrequitted, hearts will remain broken , people will deceive , connive , cheat , lie , and be exactly what they are .. people of this world who came in to do all those things .. are we really going to let them decide our happiness  or unhappiness .So how do we preserve our sanity and make sure that our happiness is not always influenced by others , that what we are is not a product of what others do to us , but only and only a product of what we think and what we are and what we want to be .

Somehow other peoples influence on our lives takes over so much of us that we concentrate only on that and that is what determines our happiness  .. expectations are such a root of so much evil  , also acceptance .. we want to be accepted by others and when that doesn't happen we hurt. Maybe because we are not confident of the people that we are , cos we do not consider ourselves complete the way we are. Maybe one way of trying to be happy is to start by stopping to expect anything from anyone , stopping to want re assurance and acceptance . Accept that people do suck and its not a perfect world , it just is not ,see it for exactly what it is and stop trying to make it better cos that is not our job , our job is to only look out for our own selves , make sure that we continue to live by the ideals set by us . No one is going to change cosve us , no one is going to change for us .. no one is going to make us happy .. we are totally on our own in our our pursuit for happiness and we alone are responsible for it and the only way to achieve is detachment and focussing on our own lives completely ... Like yogi bapa says '' apna kar lo'' .. bas !

So is it that one can be truly happy only if they are either completely selfless or completely selfish ? 

Was seeing this movie 'strictly sexual' something they said made a lotve sense :

''Life is a bunch of stories , they all come to an end , and then its time to find a new one , are you ready to find yours ? ''

When you let real love pass you by , you give up the one chance you had at real happiness forever. Everything else after that is only one big compromise , and only you are responsible for it , nobody else.

Life is not a movie where once your heart is broken a hero will step in and make u believe in love all over again , in real life once broken is broken forever.

We will always crave for what we do not have and never appreciate what we do .. we fool ourselves our entire lives thinking what we do for ourselves is what we want and what will make us happy , the truth is we keep running from facing our own selves and in the process only accumulate more and more agony .

When you realize you lost what you most wanted because you didn't even know thats what you wanted while it was there right in front of you ... know that you have made the biggest mistake of your life ... and there probably is no going back now .. so what are you going to do ? what are you going to do ?

What are you going to do ?

Real Love :
Will never die
Will make u smile and make u cry too
Will be forever
Will adore your flaws too
Even the dreams feel empty without it
Goes beyond a lifetime
Is a little crazy
Hurts
Will make u wait
And then will be worth the wait too
will be misunderstood

Feels like it is time for a change , as I said earlier this morning Version Manveen 2.0 coming up. I was recently made aware of certain things about myself . I was 'pleasantly' surprised. I can tell you that they were not the best things one could say to another ,so why 'pleasantly' ? .. I'll tell you why .. hearing that I was selfish and didn't give a damn about others felt good .. because I have always felt that the biggest problem with me is that I am too self less and I think too much about others , so in some ways it was a consolation ,I always felt others were selfish and didn't think about others , well guess what ,.. we all are that way .. if someone can say that about me then most definitely its a trait we all have , some a little less , some a little more .. but its a trait I so badly wanted at least in some amount at least and looks like i made it !

So whats the deal with Ver. Manveen 2.0.. lol ... Time for a change ... ;)

The irony is that we think we can understand people when we cannot even know our own selves. Judging others comes with a huge responsibility .Saying that we know them and can hence point out their flaws and help them become better people is an even bigger responsibility and should be done by someone with a lotv'e precaution . I find myself very incapable of judging anyone , even more incapable of figuring out what could be possibly wrong with them and be able to tell how to correct it , when I do not even know myself . I am still work-in-progress , I'd just be glad if I can become the person that I want to be rather than want to be able to correct everyone else around me who I think is wrong .. God give me the vision to be able to only see my own flaws  and correct them and not take it upon myself to correct others !!Also give me the patience to hear others out when they tell me what they think is wrong about me .

I want to be able to live a life in which I commit no mistake . 

Just stay right there , A-Okay ? Dont let those beliefs u carried all these years leave u now . Remember the cliche.. it is always darkest before dawn ..

Everyone deserve a second chance . No matter what mistakes we have made, no matter who we irked and hurt .. from repentace and penance must come forgiveness and  a second chance .. to make amends .. the question is .. is one lifetime enough for all of it ?

I dont know ..hopefully it is , cos if it isnt then the viscous cycle will go on ,cos everyone deserves to be happy even the ones who did the most hateful things .. or do they dont ? again I dont know .. we will see:)

P.P Bharat Bhai on 11.19.11

• I am a forgiving and loving person
• I am responsible for my own spiritual growth
• My strenght comes from forgiveness of those who hurt me, the more I love the more that love is returned back to me .
• Be a winner in good times and a survivor in hard times
• Change your thoughts and you change your world.

When life hurts , and hurts real bad .. rejoice ... because ur bad karma is being washed away. God and all of his angels are very close to you and are looking over you . When u feel a lot of pain .. let that make u happy than sad .. sounds stupid .. but do just that , because this is when life is under construction , and every thing inside of you thats bad and rotten is being recreated , resurrected .. the old is being crushed .. feel the pain but know that you are only a few steps away from happiness , and this time it will be real and forever .. as they say it is darkest before dawn .. God is working on your life and till He makes it okay ,jus bear with Him .. smile cos nothing lasts forever , least of all pain .

Say a generous thank you to the ones who hurt you , they indeed are the medium for your happiness..

Thank you for hurting me .. for helping me get rid of my own bad karma .. U probably are the path I need to take for my Moksh.

So I have no clue why this blogspot was not publishing posts since so many weeks , or has it been months ? I don't know .. I tried wordpress , got all confused .. and then tried to just figure this one out , and looks like its working now .. some new interface that it needed to be updated .. oh well whatever !

So part 2 is done and I am awaiting results , they shud be out anytime , probably tomm , i didnt chek my mail tday , cos I was too scared ,.. dumb i know ... I have to see them some day ... I hope its all okay .. but till the time I dont find out I am going to worry about it ! That said .. CRDTS on the way too . exactly one week .. brings me one more step closer to my DDS .. yipee .. its a good feeling .. DDS but it comes with all of these exams that I need to challenge .. phew .. too many .. test of nerves , patience , faith in ownself .. just stay calm .. thats the mantra .. jus keep doing what ur doing and know that it will be okay .. do not freak out or let the stress get to you .

I am doing pretty well .. in my given circumstances , I couldn't be prouder .. I have been through enough ( yr ) .. and am still standing my ground like a bull., completely and totally dedicated twards everything that I am up for right now . i know one thing for sure .. i am not giving up without a fight .. and then ofcourse .. I am almost there .. am I not ?

Kind of saddened. Beginning of the end of democracy in India ? I am so shocked and surprised. So even if Baba Ramdev had or did not have political motives, it really wasn't right for the police to arrest him ,use tear gas , lathi charge people when they were sleeping ,.. huh .. really ?I am so so so taken aback by what has happened there .. a total mockery of democracy.

I wonder what sunday morning in India is going to bring.

U know life has taught u enuf when u can be heartily laughing and the next moment can break into tears.When it gives u sorrows but still enuf happiness to go on.

Ab bas ?

Isn't really the first time when I have felt disgraced and demeaned by what mankind has taken to, I reel under what I read about the big schwarzenegger betrayal.Feel heavily saddened by how disgracefully low people can get , but somehow am pretty amazed at the strength of his wife Maria Shriver, who still showed up at Oprah's and wore a smile too.

We all have have our own tailspin of sorrow and agony .. but what is the limit of any of the sorrows and disappointments one can be faced with ? is there any really ? How much can one be dealt with before life itself says ... ab bas ?I believe we will not be dealt with more than what we can handle , Any situation that we think is going to knock us off comes with the tag on it .. 'u can deal wid me , thats why I am here' The stronger we are the more we are tested. And then what really helps us go on ? Our own inner strength , at times also the realization .. that there is not just the body consciousness but also the soul consciousness and somehow I have learnt that pain is good for the soul .. almost can say .. pain is food for the soul ..

The joy is in living ... inspite of all that disrespects , demeans , dishonors us .. the joy is in saying to ourselves ... I am bigger than anything that comes to me .. and I am not going to let this get the better of me .. The joy is in knowing that all that is trying to kill my spirit is actually rejuvenating it .. The joy is in being ME inspite of everything thats wanting this ME to change to someone else .. The joy is in knowing that all the wrongs didn't dampen MY will to be kind ,compassionate and still be a good human being.

As Cyrus rightly said .. The broken heart has God on its side , the one that breaks it has a long way to go.

Life

For all that is whole and all that is not .. it all comes back. We over estimate ourselves and under estimate the magnanamity of life . The four letter word is sheer power. It is amazing how u can probably fool everyone around u but no matter how hard u try .. u cannot fool life. All along u think ur getting away with what u did and smile secretly inside knowing little that try as hard as u might .. life will have the last laugh. Nothing or rather noone comes undone.. without a tinge of doubt .. u cannot escape it .

When u think u have some chapters closed in the dark corners of ur heart .. there is life watching over u .. and it is going to make sure .. the closed chapters open ... the dues are paid .. they have to be paid .. cos life does not and will not spare anyone.

Know it .. pleasures of wrong doings are short lived but the regret is forever. And the best part is .. u think u will never regret .. life has a way of making sure u do.

Pal bhar mein kaise badalte hain rishte..

Congratulations India .. for bringing the world cup home after 28 years , and giving us a memory that will last forever . It was a perfect game and a perfect team .. spot on fielding and awesome batting , an error or two that u can ignore cos we won , but probably one of the best victories we have had. Moment to cherish and remember .. miss being in India .. but yayy .. love being an Indian