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So school is getting serious now , and its time for a pep talk .. why do i suddenly need it , cos i hve to remediate something .. and it obviously makes me feel bad ... its going into zones of ,.. am i that bad ? or jus staying in the zones of .. im getting a second chance and so some extra practice ...which is good ... i just wanna make sure tht i do not end up thinking on the 1st lines .. the am-i-bad lines that is ... lets just start by being non judgemental about our ownselves , there is a thin line to walk when it comes to evaluating urself ,being overly critical , and still being fair ... i just want myself to understand that its ok to hve to repeat something , it does not mean that i dont know what im doing it simply means that i need to take a deep breath and do whats needed and get done wid it !sometimes being mechanical helps ... objective is the right word , but im going to stick to using mechanical .. just do what u gotta do ... all of it is only and only to make u better at what u do ..and its ok to go wrong now when the damage is minimal , than later... this is going to hurt jus a little bit or probably nothing at all ...

As we go in deeper , it gets tougher . It gets extremely difficult to cope , what with the people around who keep planting seeds of doubt in the mind , and you have to fight all the things that u see and only keep trusting your heart .. but the poor heart is already so battered that it doesn't anymore know what to feel , so what to do u do ? when u dont even hve your instinct by ur side anymore ... what is it that u trust in ? .. sometimes i think , if ur left with nothing to trust in jus believe in ur own goodness , thats the least u can do ... atleast u have that .. and ur sure abt that one .. there will always be a ''what if'' ,there will always be a dark part to every good thing , a negative side to every beautiful thing ... every story will have a flip side ... there will always be demons , all u can do is keep the faith , in urself , mebbe when nothing else wrks ,that will !

P.S: The doubts weren't so uncalled for after all .. whoever says i have a crazy gut has no clue wat im talking abt .. my instinct vindicated one more time (5.5.11)